A Pig in the Dog's year.

Fengshui Si Fu 1: Your lucky star shines and a VIP is very supportive. You have a chance to go on a long journey and money will come to you. However, the male pig will have a better year than the female. Do not be hot-tempered or fall into the trap of the opposite sex. It is a very good year for students. Be on guard against robbery attempts. Become a volunteer and do good deeds. If you travel abroad to work, you can get a supportive VIP samaritan.

Fengshui Si Fu 2: This is quite a good year. Be humble and ditch that attitude (Oo). Remember that your success is due to your supporters. Without them, you wouldn't have come far. Minimise nightlife, as it can take a toll on health. Try and socialise more to build up your circle of friends and contacts. Keep out of affairs that are not your business. While there are money-spinning opportunities, there are also many chances for relationships. Take care - act and choose wisely. Do not give in to any charming woman lest you court trouble for yourself. The female pig will stay loyal to her partner and family.

Poems

These are some interesting poems that caught my attention

Embarrassing

My zipper is broken
There's bound to be joking
and normally I wouldn’t care
But today's the day
I am sorry to say
I forgot to put on my underwear

Did that ever happened to you?

The Thinker

I came here, To shit and stink.
But all I do, is sit and think.

And here I sit, broken hearted.
Couldn't shit, but only farted.

Some come here to sit and think,
Some come here to shit and stink.
Often I come here to scratch my balls,
and read all the bullshits on the walls.

Here I lie in stinky vapor,
becoz some bastard stole the toilet paper.
Shall I lie, or shall I linger,
or shall I be forced to use my finger.

This is my favourite poem of all!

My Boss

Dear God, I beg you to give me the wisdom to understand my boss,

Give me the love to forgive him

Give me the patience to understand his actions

But dear God, please don't present me strength.

Because if you give me strength,

I will break his skull!!

Well above isn't exactly a poem, just a funny article. Would you pray for God to handle your boss? I wouldn't, because thanks to her, I've been surfing the net the WHOLE day since I came into work today. She told me that there's nothing that I can do at the moment, and hopefully the internet will keep me company until she finds me some stuff to do. She even let me off from tomorrow onwards, and only returning to work on the 7th of Feb for my Chinese New Year break, because she's on leave till then. How great is that? *wink*

I've read countless blogs today, all linked from 1 blog to another. From innocent 16year old girl's blog, to college rantings, to a couple's love and affection for each other, the comfort and warmth of a family's life and above all, sex blogs, or rather 18sx blogs, whichever you would call them. Some were even blocked from my network's authorization because it contains pornography. LOL. I tried to minimise my readings on those 18sx blogs because I wouldn't want my colleague or boss to just walk over and peek, "Oo Daren, watcha reading?". Worst I wouldn't want the IT Dept. guys to come to me and asking "Erm Daren, you have been surfing these particular xxx sites and its not appropriate etc etc..." Darn.

Sms'ed her to see if she's free for lunch when my mum handed me the car keys because she had a lunch appointment, but no reply. Guess she's prolly busy. Then my cousin called and said he's finishing an interview with the GM, through video conferencing apparently. Off to Ampang Yong Tau Foo we went. The damn restaurant was closing for Chinese New Year, so the choice of selection was limited. When we were there, all that is left was brinjal, lady's finger, fishballs, fried dumplings and rolls. Imagine having almost 30pieces of that for just the 2 of us. They don't even have tau foos and the customer before us had the last order of vegetables. Geeez. Should've went for chicken rice instead =.=

I've visited almost every site there is for me to visit today. Even JetLi.com =.= Then I came across

Today's Forecast:
Building a new friendship takes time. Don't get frustrated by cancellations.
Friendster's forecast for me today. Coincidence? hmmm. Then I realised. I can't even get an appointment made, how should I be frustrated by cancellations? And should I be more frustrated that there isn't any appointment to be cancelled? I dunno, but I'll keep trying, and try to counter it in fact. My remaining days in KL before I return to Bris is also making it harder for me. But I keep telling myself, only through hardship will you better appreciate it. Right? Maybe I'm bluffing myself. I'm still trying to get the appointment a couple of Tuesdays from now. I hate to even think about it. But I can't because I dowana be intercepted and lose my chance. But then again, once I think about it, I'll eventually imagine how will it be if the appointment is set, what am I gonna do, how will it turn out. And it will never, NEVER, not ONCE in my life that it will turn out the way I imagined/dreamed/planned. In general, since I was young, in whichever situation, I can plan what to do, what to say, how to react if certain obstruction appears, what are my backups, etc etc. In the end it will never turn out that way. That's why I always have the 'anything lar' mentality. It is just how my mind works. It is also why I always come up with spontaneous decision makings. Planned decision making never worked for me. There are always screw ups. But that's just me. Maybe that part of me will change in the future. Who knows?

I still have Kien's words hovering in my mind. "Seriously, If she is more interested in her television program rather than going out with you, get over it and look for another. She's just not interested! Why waste your time? There are in fact so many other fishes in the water!" He said that after hearing my conversation on the phone one day, which was on loudspeaker. But I can't help it. I'm only interested in that fish! There are certain things that you'll want to say, but ain't appropriate because of the timing/situation/relationship/position that you're in, at least not yet, until the condition changes to your favour. There will also be things you'll wanna say, but if said in the wrong moment will clearly defeats the purpose of you saying it, which is almost similar to the point above. And there will even be the time when you wanna say something, but won't get a chance to do it and once the only chance to say it is gone, it will be left unsaid, maybe even forever.

Reminiscence

1.06PM. What reminiscence? Sri Inai's lunch. I had my lunch in GSK's canteen again today, feasting myself with rice, curry fish, Sri Inai Style Chicken, tofus and some veges. Munching on the chicken just reminds me of the same type of chicken style that Sri Inai has been serving for lunch throughout my time there for 5 whole years, and how much we..er I hated it. It sure brings back these memories...How I've endured, how I've growned, how I've matured. Did I say mature? Hmmm Perhaps not, yet.

Lunch break is over, well for me at least, even though it officially ends in 30minutes, and I have nothing to do. Somebody please help me! Save me from this torment! Aid me from the ordeal I am in! God, so sleepy...

Something Stupid

11.14PM Heard this song on my way to work this morning.

Something Stupid
Sang by Robbie Williams Feat. Nicole Kidman

I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you

I can see it in your eyes
That you despise the same old lines
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you
For me it's true
And never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever
lines to say
To make the meaning come true
But then I think I'll wait until the evening
gets late
And I'm alone with you

The time is right
Your perfume fills my head
The stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you
I love you...

Sounds familiar? It sure does...hmmmm

Damn, those young auditors are no longer here already =( Didn't get a chance to improve on my understanding towards them.

Saw an interesting phrase from one of the figurines I came across:

"Since I gave up hope, I feel much better"

LOL?

Rain...

4.30PM. Here I sitting down with nothing to do...

....

OMGWTFBBQPWND. Just as I was going to yap about how bored I'm gonna be for the next hour, my boss walks into my cubicle and hands me another excel sheet, and I'm being told to arrange the data accordingly and sort the budget using the JDE (JD Edwards) requirement as printed out by the GM of GSK. I have to say that SAP is so much more user friendly compared to JDE (after using it for one day only though) and GSK is gonna fully implement SAP throughout 3rd quarter next year. Ah its none of my business yet anyways, better finish up my work and hopefully I can complete it before today ends. I'll prolly continue this tonight, or tomorrow when a similar situation appears.

Walk of Life, 3rd Stage. The working life

Sleepy. I managed 8+ hours of sleep yesterday, hitting the bed at 10something. I dreamt about something, but forgotten the moment I got up. I’m getting sleepier now that I’ve done my work, but couldn’t upload it into the network drive for my boss because the LAN is down, AGAIN. I needa get occupied to prevent myself from ‘fishing’. So here I am. Had breakfast in the canteen just now, same stuff, but new company. There was this chick sitting with my mum and she was introduced as Estelle, a Singaporean here for an orientation for a pharmaceutical thingy and she’ll be here for a few days. Apparently she just graduated from some uni (I think it was Curtin) in Perth and has been there for 4 and ½ years, so maybe 1-2years my senior? Big eyes, quite a sweet smile, and girls always look older with all those make up. Then there was Benny who owns a Suzuki Swift. The car looks nice, but it seems it’s not worth the money as I was told. Maybe I could get a test drive off him. Well, he volunteered.

Oo, LAN is up… Sigh. I’ve been given more data work. Creating another template to manage the Sell-in budget for all the products in Jan’06. Looking at these numbers just dazes me. Since she said to take my time working on this, I’ll just do as she told. Managing these numbers is easy, just that creating the template for all the columns are troublesome.

Yesterday I was into this conversation about working life with my stepdad. It all started when I talked to my mum about how time flies when you are working. Classic example would be waking up at 7-8am, getting ready for work. Hitting lunch at 12.30 and if you have got too much work at hand, your lunch break would probably last 15minutes. Then you proceed to work your ass off until 5.30pm. There are people who get their brains squeezed till about 6-7pm. I’ve seen IT support people working till about 9pm at times because sometimes you’ll just have to get it done (Well, not only IT). Then you head for dinner, whether is it at home or eating out, but having it at home is less mind blowing. After dinner, and after a long day, you will just wanna head home, take a nice shower, get some rest, and seeing that you’ll have to get up early for work tomorrow, sleep. That routine repeats 5times a week. Then comes the mentality of ‘looking forward to Friday’ when Monday comes and ‘@#$%%^ its Monday tomorrow’ just as you’re comfortably enjoying your dinner on a Sunday night. Where is life? Eventually everyone will be part of this slaved routine. I am complaining, but it is inevitable. My stepdad then went on talking about this is just an appetizer for your working life. ‘Wait till you’ll get yr other half, and once you have Daren juniors, you can then have a taste of having your wife complaining about ABCs next to you, your children crying about DEFs behind you, and your work troubling the GHIs in your head. It’s life!’ (Well that’s not exactly what he said, just his thoughts in my words) I’m like ‘Whoa uncle! You are going way too ahead’. Then my mum went on telling everyone that I’m complaining about working life etc etc. Females. Her friend even made a comment. ‘When you have yr wife, your left hand is tied. When you have yr children, your right hand is tied. If you have more children, you can say goodbye to your legs.’ That’s exactly what he said, word for word.

Imagine yourself smacked right in the middle of this conversation. OMGOMG. And NO I’m not thinking so far ahead YET. It is still 今早有酒今早醉 (Direct Translation: Today got beer, today get drunk) for me. I’m not at that stage yet. But that’s me, and I’ve just gone through my 22nd bday. Maybe I’m still a kid, and I don’t mind being one. Who doesn’t? My stepdad even went through a whole lot ‘lecturing’ me and commenting about youths, games (computer games that is) and yumcha sessions. I’m not gonna touch on that. Just different generation gaps and different mentality. But yes, I do get satisfaction from computer games, and just satisfaction alone, nothing productive (except for the strategic thinking and lightning responses involved). Don’t we all?

Hmm 12.23PM. Time for lunch. More work to do when I come back.

They turned the aircon off. It seems there was smoke coming out of the filter. So their solution? Instead of choking us to death, heating us to death. Had lunch with my mum’s colleagues. Found out quite alota stuff. First is that Jennifer, the person I’m under, my boss, is actually unofficially the Head of Finance in this company and she reports to the Finance Director (Malaysia and Singapore) of GSK. So I’m the ‘ma chai’ of the Head of the Department of Finance. Oo. Second is about Estelle. Apparently the entire 2nd floor (Sales and Finance department) went A Ga Ga over her when she came for briefing (She reports to my mum, incidentally). And when she went for breakfast *Ahem* with us, one by one the people went down to have a look at this ‘beauty’ that invaded GSK. Why did I say people? Because not only guys, but ladies joined the crowd in the canteen for no particular reason just to check out the ‘talk of the office’. Some bought curry puffs and Nescafes. Well, that was their reason I guess..

So sleepy, so hot. GSK IT Dept. is upgrading the MyGSK portal to version 2. Most of the internet service is down; therefore I can’t publish this shit until they complete the implementation. From the looks of it, not today.

My Dreams...

Dreams come and go as you sleep through the peaceful nights after a long day, (even if its a short nap, and it depends on certain individuals on how you define short) and most of the time you probably won't remember as clearly as you dreamt about it, and even forget about it the very moment you wake up. But you knew, yesterday's dream was something. There are times where you'll remember some specific elements, maybe it’s because it contains something that you've yearned for or something so weird, or absurd as you may call it, that you'll never thought you'll dream of. There is a small possibility that you'll remember a dream as distinctly as if it really happened to you, that very moment when you woke up. One such dream happened to me yesterday, err or sometime between the early hours of the 18th of Jan, 2006. From the moment I woke up, brushed my teeth, cleaned the kennel (that includes picking up dog shit at 7am in the morning), bathed, get dressed and make my way to the office, I could clearly remember every single detail of that particular dream that I had a couple of hours ago, maybe even a few minutes earlier. It was scarred into my memory till this very moment, (err right now is 11.20am, and I'm taking a break from doing budgeting for my boss atm). I have no idea why did I remember that particular dream or nightmare as I would name it from now on, because of its unpleasantness. It seriously made me uncomfortable thinking about it, as I would get disgusted about the stuff that I did in the nightmare, and it involves a certain someone. Therefore I will not go into details. Its funny in a way because I don't think that kinda 'stuff' that happened in my nightmare will be available in a near future, or maybe it does and I don't know about it :P. Still I'm disgusted. Ergh, I'm gonna force myself to stop thinking about it.

I have had dreams for the past few days, clear indication of me not having a peaceful night of rest, heheh because my definition of a night of comfortable sleep is dreamless, except for occasional 'Happy' dreams, apart from the wet ones of coz. Oh screw you. Most of my dreams have been related to the stuff that I did since I came back from Bris. It’s also a sign that I've been thinking too much, but that particular one I had last night, is totally incomprehensible. They said that the dreams you had the night before will affect the mood that you wake up in, therefore 'happy' dreams will give you a fresh start and 'unhappy' ones will leave you to a disturbing breakfast. My mood was in the latter this morning. I was so eager to call people up and talk about it but it would be deemed inappropriate, and I didn't wanna keep it inside of me, so into my deserted and neglected blog it goes. Looks like this will be the place I dump all my...unnecessary thoughts.
Dreams really make me wonder what its purpose of its existence is. Why do dreams appear? Scientifically, I will get Wi to explain, but I'm not particularly interested in all those mumbo jumbo, not until I talk to him on msn. To me dreams happen when there is/are something/s that you can't stop thinking about, and once you sleep, your brain then pictures it out, imaginatively. Just like when you were kids, and after watching a horror movie or playing too aggressively, you'll dream about it during the night and thus, nightmares.

OMFG, I'm supposed to be creating this new template my boss given me a while ago compromising of the new 2006 budget for this company relating to the products and forecasts given by the finance department. And here I am, babbling away. But what can I do? Once something happens, I'll just keep thinking about it, non-stop. Regardless of what I'm doing, UNLESS, when I'm gaming. That's when my mind really shuts itself from the outside world. Ah I miss WoW. Missed being Inoob. Missed being with a bunch of them, gaming till our eyeballs pop out. I've not played WoW hardcore'ly since X'mas, hmm come to think about it I've not touched it for more than a week, simply because I don't have the luxury of doing so. There was just too many stuff going on. And now this, my prac training in my mum's company so that I can get at least some experience for my thesis next semester when I go back to Bris. Going back to Bris... That is just another block of wall to the stuff that is going on. Another sem to go, another 6months abroad, and if I manage to get my PR, God knows how many more years till I return. Kien yesterday said a bunch of craps, out of which only 1 or 2 are worth mentioning, and yep, he haven't changed a single bit, same applies with Gim, a bunch of bullshitters, but hey that's what we all are. He said that if there are no signs of interest in you, just screw it and move along. Why bother? It did struck me, but the more I think about it, the lesser it bothers me, maybe because of a different mentality. It did lead me to think about alota stuff, but that's beside the point. He also reminded me that since I'm gonna go back to Aus, why bother with so many things? Because I want to? I seriously dunno how to answer that question. I thought to myself, maybe I did what I failed to do it before? Although I finally did it, if the results are gonna be the same, why bother even doing it? What's the idea of it if it all boils to a pointless end? Maybe it is my inexperience that placed me into such situation. Quote" I don't mind making mistakes, as long as I don't repeat them". I sure hope I didn't. Yep it did relieve me because of the positive outcome, but my mistake it seems overstepped the border, and yep, it didn't turn out the way I expected it to. Why did that happen? Bearing in mind that I'll be going back to Aus soon? Or maybe I thought this kinda stuff just happens? It could mean something to me, but it could be an entirely different thing to others. Still, what's the point? It also occurred to me that I'm thinking too much, and the situation is actually plain and simple, and things are always never what I think it is, coz I complicate things? I don't think so, or maybe I just don't realise it, or I do it subconsciously. Or maybe it is just during this moment I'm not thinking straight. Another enemy of mine, Admittance to denial. Maybe I'm just a little bit over sensitive (Damn, I hate the way I said that). I shouldn't be. I wasn't before. I was just the 'yes means yes, no means no' and 'why think so much for? anything lar' person. I should stick back to my previous attitude of Come What May, just see how things move along and react with it and do what I wanna do. But I've been doubting that ability since...I have no idea when. Couple of years back, maybe. Yep my inexperience definitely played a big part in this. Ah, those were the days.

Oo it is lunch time, time to grab something to eat, and...continue later.

Back from lunch. Stress. Was on the same table as my mum's boss, and the GM of this company. Well, at least they kept me company :) and I found out some interesting comments and news. Not so bad after all. Seriously the canteen needs more variety in their food selection. Reminds me soo much of Sri Inai back then. Chicken chicken and more chicken. But this canteen is much better coz at least they have fried noodles and nasi lemak, fish etc etc. Hmm It's only 1pm. 30 more minutes till my lunch break is officially over. More time for me to yap. Can't think of much to write already. I guess what I've written gotten me off the hook. Geez, all because of the lousy dream I had yesterday. Not sure whether is it a good thing or not, but I don't keep anything to myself. Whatever that comes into my mind is what I intend to say. Thoughts, that is. Keeping things inside will just make me feel uncomfortable, but it also occurred to me that maybe what I'm about to say may be uncomfortable to others, thou after saying it, relieves me. That sounds a bit too serious, but it is not. It’s just the gist of it. Haha another quote from a movie "Honesty is about what is coming from yr mind, and if you actually think about what you said over and over again, correcting it before saying it, how can you call it honesty?" A new definition of honesty. Bullshit. Yep, I'm so full of it. I can argue thou that whatever you wanna say should be done in a perfectly and coordinated fashion, and not just babble, taking into consideration the people whom are having a piece of your mind, and that they receive a piece of yr mind in the best possible way. That is often my problem. I can always think of a better way to put my thoughts AFTER I've actually said it. Except for this ONE time. Seriously, only that ONE time that I can think of right now.

Finally got to know this cute auditor who has been in this company for the past week, and God knows what are they doing coz I never bothered to ask. I only know from my mum that they are 'young' auditors, helping GSK (the company I'm in) in managing certain accounts, as part of their training or preliminary work, or something like that. I will definitely find out more in a not too distant future.

1.27PM. 3 more minutes till my lunch break is over. Melissa called just now, saying she's gonna get tickets for Memoirs of Geisha this Friday night.

Melissa: So you wanna go?
Me: Mou man tai, Count me in!

1.31PM. Work starts now. My boss isn't back from her lunch break yet. More time to slack. Geeez the local area network is down again, so I can't publish this post till its back up. Always occurs during this time of the day. Whatever the IT guys are doing. Hmm come to think about it, I'm not sure whether should I even publish this post. It is so unnecessary. I only wanted to write what I wanna say and without realising it, I've actually written quite alot. Just leaving it as a draft will be a waste, and I don't see the point of deleting it. There's even a small thought within me, hoping people will read this shit and actually wake me up from whatever shit I'm in (If I'm actually in one). Ah, What the heck. I'll just publish it.

2.05PM. Boss isn't back, the LAN isn't working yet, so I actually read what I've written. Seriously, it is not as serious as it sounds. I really complicate things alot. But after writing it out only I realise, what a noob I am. hahaha. I gained enlightenment the moment I read my own shit. WTF? Why think so much? Things happen for a reason and the only thing you can do is make the better out of the situation, and not lament on it. If it doesn't happen, however you force it will only make matters worst. If it happens, so be it. Time, will be your best friend. Geeez Daren, what have you become?

All because of the stupid dream.
Please....SoMeBoDy StOoOooOooOp MEEeeee!!!

Ah what a day. 3 more hours till I finish work. Damn I needa sleep early tonight, I miss my '10hours of sleep daily' routine. I miss WoW. I miss end of 2005. All those, are now stored in my forever upgrading HHDD (Human Hard Disk Drive, Lame, I Know).

2.34PM. Hmm LAN is back online. Time to add 1 more content into this post before I publish. It’s a phrase I learnt some time ago.

"人往往会比其他生物生活得不开心, 最大的原因是应为只有人才会有无这个观念, 其他生物只会因为有而满足, 只有人会应为无而不开心. "

"Men (Human basically) will always be unhappy compared to other living beings, mainly because only Men (Human) have the concept of 'I Don't Have'. While other living beings will always be contented with the things they have, only Men (I already said, HUMAN dammit) will always be unhappy because of the things they don't have. "

Ok, time to end this and impress my boss with the work that I've done. Quote "Wow Daren! Nice work. That's Fast!. OMGOMG! You're the best!" hahaha.