Keep on moving...

1.51AM

Everything that followed was supposed to be signs of what will happen next. Many people failed to see those signs, thus failing to see what is coming for them. Why? Some blinded by the fact that they are unwilling to accept the fact, or are just afraid about the truth, certain truths. I am both. I used to tell other people about accepting the fact and move on, don't keep dwelling on the past that is not worth your time, when the signs preceding the situation emerges and just learn to handle the eventual circumstances. I know I'm very much a 有口说人没口说自己 person. The signs laid before me were apparent, just that I kept telling myself it wasn't the case and that there's another perspective in the events. It was just a simple as it has happened, and I myself complicated it, by thinking too much. Sigh @ Me.

Three things bothering me currently. One is money. I'll have to look for a job after my exams to finance myself of the expenses over the course of June-July because my stash has been drained by the NZ trip in August and I'll be needing more for it as well. Sigh @ not being able to buy a digital camera.

Secondly this only happened on Tuesday, which is my dismal effort at EFN505 Financial Risk Management exam paper. The hardest and earliest out of the exams that I have. I flunked it. Went up to Vlad immediately after the exam to ask for any possibilities that I can make up for that exam paper to pass this subject, like sitting for the deferred exam. The idea of staying behind for another sem just for one subject is totally nuts, and if supplementary assessment is applicable, I will have to go through all those VAR and shit again for my last shot at it.

Thirdly, this incident has been floating around since this year, but certified as of today, which is you, and getting over you. Enough said. I'm still reluctant, and think there is still hope. Its just hard to suppress it. Sigh @ 希望越大，失望越大...Screw it. My 執着'ness and my 自欺欺人 skills are just...staggering.