Rain Vs. sunrise

3.51AM

Long night yesterday, er by that I meant Monday night because I don't know what day it is exactly today. I'll sum it up in a couple of words. Kinda blur atm after sleeping for 2pm-3am = 13hours...

Tokyo Drift.
Pancake House.
Karaoke Session.
Journey to GC.
Mahjong Lesson.
Rain = no sunrise.
More Mahjong.
More rain.
Home.
Coma.

That's basically it. Haven't had this kinda night since 2004 already, well apart from those late nights I endured doing studies/projects/gaming, it has been a while. Tokyo Drift was good, one of the better movies I've watched this year. Better than X-Men and Da Vinci's. I've seen enough previews of Superman Returns, SHOW ME THE FKING MOVIE ALREADY! dammit. It better not be another movie to add into the 'Huge-Disappointment-After-Eager-Anticipation' Movie list, which includes X-Men3 and Da Vinci's.

Sweden vs England in an hour. Hopefully England loses :)

Inconsiderate Brat(s)

2.06PM

Here I am sitting in the masters's lab, staring at my comp screen that has pen marks "artisticly" smeered all over it. Notice the inverted commas. Also notice that I mentioned that I AM IN THE FREAKING MASTERS'S LAB FOR FREAKING MASTERS STUDENT. Yet I see pen marks drawn all over the monitor and keyboard. WTF? Some ppl just never learn to respect properties of other people's shit. I seriously hope that they (he/she/it) get paint or some shit sprayed all over their coffin with no slighest bit of regret from vandalism. This stupid shit is also preventing me from using my own writing utensils, lest I'm being accused and then ended up 吃死猫 for some shit.

4-5hours of sleep each attempt and I'm in such a "wonderful" mood. Notice the inverted commas. All the stress accumulated over the days, since Tuesday I reckon, has taken its toll. My appetiteless sensation has returned, and I'm lost for words in construction of my thoughts. Screw it. I'm going to finish my project, hand it in, get over my last exam and begin my solitary confinement for dwelling...

But first I needa take a shit. There better be toilet paper in the freaking toilet...

Keep on moving...

1.51AM

Everything that followed was supposed to be signs of what will happen next. Many people failed to see those signs, thus failing to see what is coming for them. Why? Some blinded by the fact that they are unwilling to accept the fact, or are just afraid about the truth, certain truths. I am both. I used to tell other people about accepting the fact and move on, don't keep dwelling on the past that is not worth your time, when the signs preceding the situation emerges and just learn to handle the eventual circumstances. I know I'm very much a 有口说人没口说自己 person. The signs laid before me were apparent, just that I kept telling myself it wasn't the case and that there's another perspective in the events. It was just a simple as it has happened, and I myself complicated it, by thinking too much. Sigh @ Me.

Three things bothering me currently. One is money. I'll have to look for a job after my exams to finance myself of the expenses over the course of June-July because my stash has been drained by the NZ trip in August and I'll be needing more for it as well. Sigh @ not being able to buy a digital camera.

Secondly this only happened on Tuesday, which is my dismal effort at EFN505 Financial Risk Management exam paper. The hardest and earliest out of the exams that I have. I flunked it. Went up to Vlad immediately after the exam to ask for any possibilities that I can make up for that exam paper to pass this subject, like sitting for the deferred exam. The idea of staying behind for another sem just for one subject is totally nuts, and if supplementary assessment is applicable, I will have to go through all those VAR and shit again for my last shot at it.

Thirdly, this incident has been floating around since this year, but certified as of today, which is you, and getting over you. Enough said. I'm still reluctant, and think there is still hope. Its just hard to suppress it. Sigh @ 希望越大，失望越大...Screw it. My 執着'ness and my 自欺欺人 skills are just...staggering.

Revival...

6.04PM.

Blogging has returned now that I've quit WoW (almost 2weeks ago). Lets mark this revival celebration with one phrase that I learnt from Sze not too long ago...

"要同一个男人相处得开心，只需了解他而唔需要爱他。。相反，要同一个女人相处得开心，你一定要爱她，但别妄想能完全了解她"

Here's for you 'banana' people.
"In order to interact happily with Guys, you'll just have to understand him, and not love him. On the contrary, to interact happily with Girls, you'll have to love her, because it is almost impossible to understand her."

How true is that?

I'll continue when I have the time, which is when I'm not procrastinating about my project, and exams which are due in 2weeks' time.